Posts Tagged ‘Wheres My Pencil’


Every breath I take filled with emotionless air.
Suffocating in nothingness for too many years.
Unable to hurt, to cry, to love.
Not even a sliver of guilt
When you tell me I don’t care.
So fed up with pretending,
The facade is slowly breaking.
Nothing left to give, Nothing left to take.
Will you stay beside me if I finally let you see?
Or, will you leave if I take down my defenses
In order for you to glimpse,
The nothing that is me.


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So a little over a week ago I attended the “Cairo Caravan,” an annual belly dancing event that takes place on the Queen Mary. Belly dancers (beginners to professionals) come from all over the world to attend this three day event. It’s really a fabulous experience to watch how many different ways people express themselves through the art of belly dance and it’s even more exciting to feel the support even the least experienced receives. Vendors also litter the place, along with drummers. After we performed my sister and I joined a drum circle that had gathered outside for an impromptu dance. Anyway, it was an exciting day and I thought I’d share the youtube video that was posted of our tribal troupe. 🙂

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As writers, we make decisions everyday from what scene we’re going to work on for the day to what elements  we’re going to keep or throw out. But sometimes, trying to figure out what should stay and what should go is more gray than black and white. When I first sit down to start a story I ask myself a few simple questions: what is this story about? What challenges will my hero/heroine face? How do I get there? Answering these questions is the easy part. I have a clear plan I want to follow. It’s when I actually start writing I run into trouble. Suddenly my mind goes into overdrive and ideas spring forth one after another and before I realize it, I have too many elements for one story to hold. The best is when I couldn’t think of anything before and end up with an overload of ideas after I start. Now the question becomes what ideas are going to enhance my story and bring out the themes and subplots and which scenes/ideas are just weighing it down? How do I decide?

I am facing this question right now with my story Love, Death and Other Things. I’m not even twenty-thousand words in and I feel like there are too many things weighing it down. Car crash, heart-ache, rape, break-up and I’m not even finished. For me, it’s too early to tell what should stay and what should go, but I already have an idea that not everything is going to work. It almost feels like I wanted to write a great story, so in the interest of writing the best story I took every jaw-dropping, heart-stopping moment I could think of and wrote it in. The verdict of what goes and what will stay won’t happen until I finish the story and flesh out my main characters internal plot. That’s thousands of words and one revision from where I’m at now. In other  words, I won’t be able to actually start cutting out pieces for at least a few more weeks…if not months. But that’s okay. It’s fine if I don’t have the answers right now. Sometimes its better to wait and get to know the characters and story better before making any unnecessary changes.

I’ve read many blogs from authors who have begun cutting too soon and make more work for themselves later because they write  more scenes that don’t work and then end up re-typing the original idea. I’m not saying waiting is always better, but sometimes, if you don’t wait, instead of having too much in your story there is too little, which is like starting all over again.

How do you deal with too many ideas in one story? How do you decide what stay and what should go?

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It’s Wednesday which means it’s time for another road trip Wednesday hosted by the girls over at YAHighway. Today’s question is:

How do you reward yourself when you meet your writing goals?

I actually have no good answer for this. I don’t reward myself with a certain amount of television, ice-cream, or chocolate. I kind of do what I do with working out, bask in the satisfaction of completing the task by doing absolutely nothing. This may explain why I don’t finish projects faster, but I think that has more to do with me being overly critical of myself and writing ability. Maybe I could develop an award system. Maybe, every time I meet a goal, I could…take the next work day off and spend it doing whatever I wanted. Perhaps I’ll take a hike in the mountains 30 minutes from my house, or I could go lounge on the beach 45 minutes away. Or, I could go to the Zoo since I do have a year pass and spend the day hanging out with my favorite animal, the tigers, alongside my favorite niece and nephew. I don’t know. There are so many options and only one day to do them. This is another reason why I may have problems hitting my goals. I’ve never been the greatest decision maker. Even deciding where to eat is a never ending back and forth with me and myself. Sometimes I want everything and sometimes nothing sounds good. I think my no award system works pretty well for me. Sometimes nothing is the best thing.

What about you? How do you reward yourself when you meet a goal?

Unfortunately my laptop is still not charging and it’s $45 to get it diagnosed, so until I get it down to the computer guy, my pencil will remained lost. That’s okay though, I’m still finishing up the pictures to my children’s book. Hopefully when I finish I’ll know what’s wrong with my computer. Til then I hope you all find your pencils.

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Road trip Wednesday is a blog carnival hosted by the lovely ladies over at YA Highway. Today’s question is:

If you got to choose a celebrity narrator for the audio book of your WIP or your favorite novel, who would it be and why?

I honestly have no idea. My main WIP is about the Angel of Death who is kind of the dark and brooding sort, so I might have to go with….Robby Benson. For those of you who may not be familiar with Benson he is the voice of the Beast in Disney’s version of Beauty and the Beast. His portrayal of the beast, through voice alone, really captures the overall tone I’d like to set for my story. I can imagine Azreal speaking in a deep low growl, full of self-loathing and despair, while he asserts his dominance over others. I believe Benson would be able to take the complexities of the story and character and bring them to life through his voice alone.

My other WIP, which I’ve titled Love, Death and Other Stuff, is a YA collection of poems sprinkled through a single story about a seventeen year old girl transitioning from high school to the real world. If I had to choose a celebrity to narrate this WIP, I would probably choose…Anne Hathaway who has surprised me with her diversity as an actress. The innocence in Anne’s voice, coupled with her age and maturity would bring a nice balance to my WIP. Overall I think she would do an excellent job, even though I wasn’t as meticulous in choosing her as I was in choosing Benson.

Don’t tell my WIP’s but I do have a favorite. Shhh. 🙂

Now I’m off to find my pencil. Unfortunately I still haven’t figured out how to get my WIP’s to write themselves so I need to find it in order to get anything done.

Hope everyone has a great day and let me know, which celebrity would narrate your WIP?

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Since it’s Thursday I would normally blog about the blog of the week, but seeing as I haven’t been very active reading any lately,  I know terrible me, I thought it would be a nice change of pace to watch something fun. Sometimes we writers take writing a bit too seriously and forget to enjoy ourselves.

The beautiful young lady in the front wearing yellow is my little sister and I’m the one in the back line wearing black and red making all the mistakes, lol. 🙂

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It’s Wednesday which means it’s time for another Road Trip Wednesday hosted by the girls over at YA Highway. This weeks topic is:

Compare your first kiss with your favorite characters first kiss?

Okay, so since my fave character is Eeyore (which, btw, if you have any extra Eeyore related paraphernalia feel free to send it my way 😉  ) I’m just going to compare my first kiss with Ron and Hermoine. Ron and Hermoine’s first kiss had everything I imagined would be mine. It was filled with genuine feelings that had been built up through the years (each book) and was very sweet. Pretty much it was what I had imagined a first kiss should be.

Now, let’s rewind to my first kiss. I was a shy fourteen-year-old freshman who had been dating her first boyfriend for about a month.  I had never kissed anyone before and I was terrified at the idea, especially since I had built up what a first kiss should be over the years. Now, my then boyfriend really did try. And, if I wasn’t well me, it probably would have been the perfect first kiss, but unfortunately I am me.

The mood was set perfectly, it was Homecoming, my dress was beautiful and we had fun dancing in the gym. Toward the middle of the evening, we went for a walk outside so we could be alone. We found a bench and looked at the stars together and then…then he kissed me and I said “Ewww.” Not exactly the warm bubbly feeling I had when Ron and Hermoine smooched. My boyfriend was obviously hurt, but for some strange reason didn’t break up with me. To this day I think I’m the only girl who has ever said “Ewww” during her first kiss.

What was your first kiss like? let me know in the comments below and I’ll be back with news on my 100 followers contest, which I haven’t forgotten about, once I find my pencil. It’s been a little MIA on me since I’ve been searching for a new job. Good news though I think I’ve found one. 🙂 Hope you all have a great day and get your pencil’s moving.

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